I am actually to the point of just sadness when it comes to my fitness, how I look and how I feel. I WANT to do better and I WANT to look better and I LOVE to eat. So now what?

I keep hearing in my mind "if you don't want to keep starting over...quit stopping" I feel like all I do is get frustrated and start over but I am never making ANY progress. I hate being fat, I am self conscience and tired of schlepping 205-210 lbs around.

I thought it was the Prozac I had been on for so long, so I switched t Cymbalta I think I am actually gaining. I am uncomfortable in my skin and I binge eat my emotions.
I know I am just rambling but I felt I needed to get it out.