Friday, June 22, 2012
Hypersensitive sense of taste + Crest Toothpaste with Scope = MASSIVE MAJOR MELTDOWN.
That is the lesson that we learned last night. Our son, who is autistic, has a seriously hypersensitive sense of taste. We were well aware of that. It is one of the many reasons that he will eat a very small number of foods. Well, somehow last night he ended up with our toothpaste on his toothbrush instead of his toothpaste. My poor baby. You would have thought he swallowed fire and gargled with rubbing alcohol. It was instant tears with screaming and yelling until he couldn't breathe. Every time he would swallow he would just start screaming again. He just kept saying "Help Mama, Burns!!" and pointing at his throat. I did what I could to calm him down, but there was nothing that I could do. He wouldn't drink any water. He wouldn't drink any juice. There was no way for me to make him feel better. There was no way for me to make him understand that he needed to drink to help with the burning feeling.
It got very close to ending up as a mommy meltdown too. There is nothing worse then my child being in pain and not being able to help him. I hate that helpless feeling. After about 10 minutes of screaming I finally got him to quiet down and sip at some juice. It took the last bit of energy out of me. I wanted to sit down with a big bowl of ice cream with hot fudge on it.
What did I do?
I went to bed.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that the ice cream wasn't going to do a dang thing to make me feel better. It wasn't going to make me feel any calmer. It wasn't going to help reduce my anxiety. It was just going to make me feel guilty, miserable, and like a failure. That is not what I needed. I needed the sleep. When I thought about it this morning. I was so glad that I made the right decision while under that kind of stress. Instead of feeling all those bad, negative feelings, I felt proud of myself for making the better choice.
I can really do this! I am making little baby steps, but at least I am moving in the right direction.