Here I stand...at the beginning again
Friday, June 22, 2012
but i am ok with that. Better to be there than somewhere in the background, invisible. Anywho, I get the diagnosis of pre-diabetic the other day and I guess that's what I needed to keep me motivated to do what I am doing. This week, I have walked 2 - 4 miles a day and have eaten nothing but fruits, veggies and lean meats. I am still having a difficult time with patience. Still want immediate results and I really don't know how to deal with that. I have prayed, still waiting on the answer :o) Now that I have turned the big 4-0, I have really had to step back and take a look at my life. I don't like the example I am setting for my children. My saying has always been "if you see something that needs to be done, do it" and that is exactly what I am doing. I will weigh myself every Sunday. Not really into the measuring thing anymore; I'll tell by my clothes.
It was such a relief to hear I was pre-diabetic. It totally explained all of my symptoms I'd had for months. I was so sick and tired of feeling like I was living on the outside of my life. Being fatigued will truly take something out of you. Feeling dizzy all the time is more than uncomfortable, it is scary, especially driving with my kids in tote. Having anxiety when I leave the house (especially the grocery store). Feeling like I couldn't breath without palpations all the time. Sick of sleeping with that CPAP (i am not claiming it as mine). Brushing something off my face and the fat jiggles under my chin. Seeing my reflection in the side view mirror from the driver/passanger side looking a grand hot mess!!!! Not feeling like doing my hair. Not going shopping anymore because of the bulges. Oh, the bulges...no matter where I am, I look down and there it is. I look forward to saying good-bye to that! I will not be sad lol.
Iwill have to add resistant training soon. Well, I will add a little more later this weekend.