Friday, June 22, 2012
I am so so sorry that I haven't been on here. Honestly, I didn't want to be on here. I'm depressed and tired and sick and I just couldn't handle looking at this page. When I see how much I was doing on here, it shows me even more how bad I'm doing now. I have been feeling really bad. I don't have much energy. I run down real easy, so the time I've spent running for the boys, has run my body way down. When I'm home, I hardly feel like doing more than sitting. I'm eating bad. I haven't exercised in forever. I'm so anxious and depressed. I'm aware of how bad I'm doing and my mom and Grandma are too, but I'm having trouble pulling out right now. I don't know how I've gained weight back so fast, but I've gained 10 lbs in like 2 or 3 weeks. It took so long to get that off and I worked so long to keep it off. I'm really sad. I will try to get on here more. Today I decided I would get on here and blog at least, because one great thing about Spark is the support you get. If you pray, please say a prayer for me. Part of my depression is dealing with financial issues since I've not been getting child support right and everything around me seems to be breaking. If it weren't for my mom's help, I don't know what I would do. Well love to you all. I hope each of you are doing wonderful. Take care and hopefully I will bring you good news soon.