Thursday, June 21, 2012
I never posted the rest of the pics of my 10 Day Sister Challenge (which already seems like YEARS ago even though it technically ended last Thursday). Part of the reason why is that last Monday, I got some news about my role at work and on Wednesday that news got more worrying. Basically, I have a part-time gig at a large software company in the greater Seattle area. I was lucky enough to find one of the rare gigs here after the birth of my child and have been on this team as a part-timer for 18 months. Well, all of a sudden, my jobshare partner and I were told last week that the jobshare will be ending "sometime in the next fiscal year", which gives us NO details about how soon our lives could be dramatically changing. She already wants to leave the role to go part-time elsewhere, so I assumed that meant that I could just take over her work and take on 20 more hours a week, which is totally doable for me at this point in the toddler's life. But, then I was informed that I'd have to reinterview for my own job. And that possibly, they'd even re-scope the job and I wouldn't even be able to interview for it because it would be above my current level here. All this being said, I've had to go into all-out job hunting mode while I'm still sitting around here waiting to hear what's going to happen with my current role. And this is all hovering on top of the fact that we were planning to try for another baby in two months. So, I feel like I should really be already situated in either this job (full-time) or a new full-time job before I get pregnant because I would feel awkward taking another job knowing that I was preggo but not telling my employer about it. I know that it's not illegal, but it just feels wrong to me.
Anyway, all of this job stress has me completely undone. And on top of that, we signed up the Toddler for swim lessons that are Mon-Thursday at 6pm for all of this week and next week, so that completely takes away my opportunity to go spinning. I asked my husband to watch him tomorrow afternoon so that I can do one class at 4:30pm, so that's a start. And, we've been doing 16 oz of juice plus a green smoothie every day, so that's good. Oh, and I've cut out alcohol since the weekend, so that's good. But I'm still just feeling off track, out of control and generally down. I'm a planner. And being held in this prison of unknowns is really demoralizing for me. I'm trying to follow the thought process of this quote below, but it's not easy for me at this point.
P.S. one more good thing is that I'm currently eating a huge green salad with mushrooms, beans, peppers and tofu on it, so there's that. :)