Today I am even more thankful for my fiancee than ever, if that's possible. Last night, as we were settling into bed, I told Tom that I needed to have a serious talk with him. I told him that I felt like I had sort of started to let myself go, and that I never wanted to be the person that did that after settling into a relationship. I told him I wanted to get back to how I was, meaning eating well, working out regularly, and generally feeling great... not just good or ok. I told him his help and support were just what I needed and that he had my permission to give me a swift kick in the you know what if I was not showing commitment... or had too much on my plate... or was grazing in the kitchen out of boredom, etc.
He said ok, and I told him I was really serious, that I can be at goal weight by new years eve if I stay on track, and can hopefully lose 15-20 lbs in time for my best friend's wedding... and to fit that (gorgeous, btw) dress. He could tell I meant business, and he hugged and kissed me and said he'd be there for me. And he's off to a really good start.
I told him I had planned out my breakfast and lunch and logged it on Spark, and I stuck to what planned. We did a little grocery shopping together after I got home from work, and he made a healthy asian dish and had the calorie and nutritional counts ready for me. I'm usually in control of my breakfast and lunch and he often cooks dinner with the groceries I go shopping for, so now he's cooking even healthier than he did before and serving me appropriate portions.
He also mentioned that I should get up 30 minutes earlier than I normally would, and take the dog out for a walk... and eventually a run. I have to be at work at 8 am tomorrow, so I'll be leaving around 7:30, and he offered to get up at 6:15 with me and take the dog for a walk just to get me started on a routine. THEN, he said if I'm still being a "good girl" in a week, that next Wednesday we can go shoe shopping for new running shoes, and that he'll split the cost with me.
Seriously, he's gone above and beyond what I could have hoped for in terms of support. He's giving me some tough love (that I asked for and need) and for also including himself in the mix to make it a little easier.
Anyway, just needed to share that... I love him so much and appreciate him more and more everyday. I also read a friend's blog today about existing vs living... it really hit home. Here's the link: www.sparkpeople.com/mypa
I think it's a good read for everyone, but especially those that find themselves relating to my current situation.
P.S. I chose to not merely exist, but to live.