Wednesday, June 20, 2012
I have been thinking all day and finally may have figured something out. I eat when I am bored, I eat when I am lonely.I eat because I can not think of anything else to do. I eat because it is there. I sometimes eat when I am full and think I still need more food. I am trying to listen to my hunger and body signals. They are so screwed up from the years of dieting.
I am trying to teach my metabolism to speed up again. I have been yoyoing so long that my metabolism is in slow mo now. My trainer told me today that I am not eating enough protein. Time to research some new protein ideas for each meal. I need to be eating 6-8 ounces for lunch and dinner. I know I have not been doing that. Tomorrow is a new day and I will get the protein in. I need to make a shopping list and get things for me.
Talked to my husband today and he is thinking about a job in minnesota where he will not have to travel anymore. We really need to think about this but it would be wonderful to have him at home at night. I think it would help with my boredom and my bad food choices.
I know I can make better choices and not have to do the gastric bypass. I do not want to because I have heard so many horror stories about it. I also know my body does not react well to antesthia I always get sick from it. That is the part that scares me the most. I almost died after having madison because my blood pressure tanked. I know I can lose the weight because I have done it before. No more focusing on the scale need to focus on the food choices and that will help.