WHAT motivation regain?! It's all gone. GRRRRR. I'm mad.

So my first week of work is going well. Still have to get used to the new life schedule, but I think I'm doing fine. A terrible hot and humid wave hit the whole province and the weather is terrible for me. I always lived in the north so I'm used to 25*C being the hottest I get. It's my first whole Summer in Quebec City, and we've been in the 30's for two days, above the 40's with the humidex factor. I'M DEAD.

Monday was my day off exercise-wise. So I got up at 6:30 for my first day of job EVER. Stress. It went well. The lady who's training me called in sick so I didn't start with her. I spent most of the day listening to a coworker giving an online training to clients for the software, and then I had a HR meeting that last 2 hours where everything was explained to us (the three new employees, one in accounting, one in sales and me in tech support).

I left at 5 feeling excited and exhausted XD it was weird having the whole evening to myself: there was some food left from Sunday's supper, so I ate that and didn't have to cook; I spent the rest of the evening playing the Sims, reading, relaxing and reading into my insurance and retirement plan papers (yes, planning retirement at only 22, hahaha).

Tuesday was the first day I was going to the gym so early. I set my alarm clock to 5:45, spent 5 minutes trying to wake up properly just sitting on my bed, and finally got ready for the gym. I thought I'd be there at 6, but I was there at 6:10, which stressed me out. I really hate going to the gym when I have something planned right after (aka now, going to work) because I hate being late or having to hurry to shower, eat and get prepared. So my mind just told me to kick everything and cut everything. I only did 8 minutes of cardio instead of the usual 13 (I got nauseous, but honestly not enough to have to stop) and I only did ONE SET of all my strenght training exercises. How bad is that?! I got home way too early and spent like 15 minutes just sitting around, drinking tea before heading to work - time that could have been spent at the gym. So yeah. Gotta work on my mindset.

Spent the day with my trainer, well most of the day, and did some reading at the end for an hour and a half. Back at home I kicked my ass and took a walk to the grocery store because we were out of soy milk, bread, and tea - aka everything I need for breakfast, LOL. I read a lot and also started commenting and criticizing the two texts (a novella and a play) that friends of mine have written and wanted me to take a look at. I viewed it as a chore first - that's why I waited so long to do it (I've had the novella since Winter) - but time really went by fast while doing it, and it felt awesome. I guess I was just viewing it as schoolwork since that's mostly what I did for my uni classes XD

I was supposed to go for a jog this morning, but it's way too hot. Even walking tires me. So nuh-huh. I slept another 45 minutes instead. My trainer was off today so I spent most of the day reading training stuff, and the last hour and a half listening to another tech support's calls. That was interesting as I finally got to see (and hear) what my job would be like! I mean I'm constantly hearing the other techs in cubicles next to mine, but it's different when you actually hear the client and see the tech's screen and what's really happening. Time just flew while I was listening to the calls, and I'm pretty sure I'll like this job :D I've always loved helping people, but I also really like accounting - I just didn't like the secluded, repetitive aspect of it. So helping people with their accounting without having to actually DO the accounting is right for me XD

Nutrition-wise I've been horrible lately. I'm getting weird cravings, and my body isn't used to this schedule - getting up early and waiting longer between snacks and meals. I used to sleep 9 hours every night, or so, and being home most of the day while being out evenings. Now it's the opposite - I sleep 8 hours strict, and I'm not home from 8:15 to 5:15. I'm constantly hungry at job, which could be because:
- Either I don't pack enough food for my snacks and lunch;
- Or I don't drink enough water;
- Or my body has to get used to this new schedule.

I'm waiting until the end of the week and if it's still the same I'll pack more food. I HAVE to drink more water at job, I should carry a reusable bottle with me (buy one first...) because glasses and open containers are not allowed in the cubicles (because it's computers everywhere, obviously).

So when I get home after work I'm usually starving and I eat something before supper, usually a fruit; but after supper I still feel hungry and I've been eating a lot of snacks and desserts. Monday night I had a bowl of cereal and toasts; yesterday night, cereal, ice cream with chocolate syrup and a whole pack of Lay's stack'em chips... -_- fail. And tonight, I went to Second Cup, got myself a dessert and a caramel icepresso. Why do I keep ruining it all with simple cravings? Ever since my boyfriend moved in it's like I don't care anymore. I don't know the link between the two but I noticed it's been affecting me. MAYBE that before I didn't feel like going out alone to get sweet/salty foods (I very rarely buy "bad" foods at the grocery store), but now that I've always got someone with me I always suggest we go somewhere and grab something and he agrees. Gotta stop this, NOW.

So it's not the best of weeks, but the weather is keeping me from doing anything, honestly. Just BEING OUTSIDE is horrible and I feel like I'm about to die. I'm constantly in underwear at home. XD and I'm not sleeping well because of the heat. Ugh. At least the office is very well air-conditioned, and the gym too, so yay for that.

Last thing: my bike is here!!!!!!! It's been at my parents' house since forever, because I never brought it with me ever since I moved out 4 and a half years ago, but they brought it when they came last weekend, as well as my father's old bike that he gave to my boyfriend. And the boyfriend proceeded to paint my bike a new color - flashy neon pink! :D I now WANT to ride it around, hahaha. It's not ready yet, but I think I'll be adding a bike ride to my weekly exercises :)