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Reflections... just overweight, life and love.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Well... it seems that life can move along quickly these days...

I have met so many goals lately it is somewhat overwhelming right now.... just trying to keep myself moving in the right direction for now, until reality catches up my conscious self.

I have lost over 110 lbs... this is amazing... I feel amazing, look amazing but am still trying to figure out why I am not quite happy. I know I still have a ways to go, that's not it... I have had to struggle every day lately just to eat enough and exercise regularly... I am doing my best, but its the eating enough thing that is the hardest. I have to try and kick myself in the butt right now... this is such an important moment in my journey.

I have also managed to get out of the obese category... Yeah! I am just overweight now! What a feeling! I know it won't be long until i am a healthy weight... i believe in my self and know I will get the job done!

I am still working out almost twice a day.. 1 hour of cardio in the morning... and I have now added yoga to my regime... I plan on doing yoga in the evenings 5 days a week... found a great studio and bought an unlimited pass that goes into september... I find this experience is giving me an inner peace that I have needed for such a long time... mixed with lots of great breathing and stretching... it might just help me find my balance (pun intended).

Life has been moving along quite quickly... especially since I decided to added dating to the mix... Some of you may have read that I was dating a firefighter earlier this month... well i'm not quite sure what happened there... He decided that we should continue seeing other people and if we are still interrested in each other in two weeks, we will give it a go.. ? What the hell? He said his feelings were too strong for me so soon and he didn't what to get hurt... That I needed to make sure that I really wanted to be with him first... He thinks I won't want him in two weeks... what the hell? I never had these problems when I was fat... he told me he loved me the day before he said we should see other people... any insight peeps? I told him I was perfect just as I am... and that seeing other people wasn't necessary... now he's not talking to me.

Well, life is awesome, aside from getting hurt by men.... I will continue to improve on my personal journey and let the rest of life sort it self out on its own... If there is anything I have learned in this process, it is that you must take care of yourself first... then worry about others. So... lots of yoga... friends... healthy eating and loving myself.

Have a healthy day everyone!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BOTTLEDIGGER 6/26/2012 8:44AM

    Wow, I enjoyed reading your blog...I am so proud of your weightloss...I am trying to spend more time on ME...started 244 and down to 223...I sure need some support and ideas to STICK with it.......I agree with the comment about your "friend" being a deserve better...does not seem like he is your soulmate....hang tough....and congrats again on your success!

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OMMAMA7 6/22/2012 8:30AM

    Strange...No advice there, but congrats on so many goals accomplished. As you know, you are doing AWESOME! And I think most of us often get that feeling where even though things are going great we still aren't quite happy or feel as if something is missing. It might be the romantic issues, it could be how you were saying that meeting these goals so quickly lately is a bit overwhelming - that could give you a bit of an unsettled feeling I would think because as your goals change, you are in new territory - it's a change, an unknown. And strange as it sounds a lot of people have issues as they get close to their goal weight. Even when we hate being overweight, at the same time it's what we know, there's some strange comfort in it. For me anyway, it's like the extra weight is an insulation that makes me more hidden, like less attractive, less worthy of attention, etc. It can be scary as it starts to melt away even though it's great at the same time. I think that is why there's so much self sabotage out there.

Anyway.....Just remind yourself of how strong and awesome you are and that even though this is new, it's great and you will adjust just fine, whatever it is that is going on that doesn't feel quite right. You will figure it out and do great!!

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GIRLONFIRE1979 6/21/2012 2:16PM

    I am new to your blogs (as of today) so forgive me if you've done this/someone has suggested it before...but you you need to read He's Just Not That Into You. I bought a copy for all my friends and it rocked our worlds. Before I would have thought "aw, maybe he's sweet and sensitive and just wants to be sure..." Now, as soon as I read that my alarms went off: GUYS DON'T THINK LIKE THAT. (Sorry to stereotype) but for the most part, guys know if they want you the second they see you. If they do they go after you and don't want to let you go. It's so simple, and we women overanalyze a lot of things that guys say to "string us a long" or "not hurt our feelings cause they don't like it when we cry." Stay far away from him girl!!!! P.S. The book is very truthful, but very funny too : )

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LOOKSLIKELILY 6/21/2012 4:16AM

    Yes, I agree with the other posters. It's a very weird thing to say the day after he tell you he loves you. He is a game player, and past the age of.... let's say 17.... game players are not welcome! You will find someone better. You haven't been doing all this work on yourself to sell yourself short!

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GETSTRONGRRR 6/20/2012 9:39PM

    Sounds lame to me...."he didn't what to get hurt"

Dude, you never say something like that!

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BLUE-EYED-MAMA 6/20/2012 2:41PM

    I completely agree with CK! Great advice!

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BOB240 6/20/2012 2:41PM

    "That I needed to make sure that I really wanted to be with him first... He thinks I won't want him in two weeks... what the hell? I "

No no're better than that.. learn from it..move on...

College profs my not have the muscles (cough- with one exception :) ) but at least they don't come out with trite......

You're in control.. you look compromise!!!

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MANDYJ73 6/20/2012 12:51PM

    Thanks CK... thats the plan!

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CKGO69 6/20/2012 12:50PM

    Mandy, if he's that wishy-washy this early on, you're probably better off without him. The right guy is out there. (I'm not just saying that, I actually believe it.) There is someone for everyone. You'll know it when you find him. Just keep taking care of yourself until that happens!

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