Tuesday, June 19, 2012
One definition of insanity is replicating a behavior and expecting a different outcome. I know that, just like I know being around my mother brings back all sorts of childhood angst and overeating.
Over the last 18 months, I have morped into being a part-time caretaker for my mother, which gets me away from my house and safety zone. My workout schedule disappears and I eat poorly.
If I look in the mirror, I can see the 50 pounds I've packed on taking care of my mother.
So, my question is, when does caring for someone else mean I stop caring for myself? If I know things fall apart when I'm with my mother for extended periods of time, why can't I move on and do something different?
Seriously, how do I get out of this cycle? She is not going to stop needing care and I am going to continue being there. How do I break this deadly pattern?