Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Today was another weigh in day and it was another hard fought for couple of pounds. In the last month I got really sick, the couldn't eat much kind, so I dropped a lot, but gained most of it right back making it harder to lose like I have been in the past. Usually I've lost 5-7 pounds in the 3 weeks between pictures, this last time it was 3. At least it was a loss, I could have given up and gained after being that sick.
It doesn't matter how little the loss was, I've still come a long way from where I started. The first photo is my first full body shot at 222 pounds, a 7 pound drop from my starting weight. The second picture was taken last night with a weight of 193, a total of 37 pounds lost all together!
Despite all the weight lost I'm still having a hard time seeing it even though I know it's there. I'm not sure at what point it will really look to me like a skinny girl, but I hope that I will look like that at one point in this weight loss. I know it's all in my head at this point, once again I need to let my inner logic take over to prevent myself from getting into trouble with any eating disorder. I'm not picking myself apart at this point, I just am not thrilled over the tummy area, which will never be the way it was 10 years ago before children.
I suppose to get rid of those inner demons I need to tell myself: What a great accomplishment! 37 pounds! Not many people could do that! Looking good girl!
Inner voices, just wait for the battle because logic and good humor will win every time!