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New weigh in, new picture.

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Today was another weigh in day and it was another hard fought for couple of pounds. In the last month I got really sick, the couldn't eat much kind, so I dropped a lot, but gained most of it right back making it harder to lose like I have been in the past. Usually I've lost 5-7 pounds in the 3 weeks between pictures, this last time it was 3. At least it was a loss, I could have given up and gained after being that sick.

It doesn't matter how little the loss was, I've still come a long way from where I started. The first photo is my first full body shot at 222 pounds, a 7 pound drop from my starting weight. The second picture was taken last night with a weight of 193, a total of 37 pounds lost all together!

Despite all the weight lost I'm still having a hard time seeing it even though I know it's there. I'm not sure at what point it will really look to me like a skinny girl, but I hope that I will look like that at one point in this weight loss. I know it's all in my head at this point, once again I need to let my inner logic take over to prevent myself from getting into trouble with any eating disorder. I'm not picking myself apart at this point, I just am not thrilled over the tummy area, which will never be the way it was 10 years ago before children.

I suppose to get rid of those inner demons I need to tell myself: What a great accomplishment! 37 pounds! Not many people could do that! Looking good girl!

Inner voices, just wait for the battle because logic and good humor will win every time!
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  • COREY195
    You are doing so good. remember it's a journey, even if it goes slower than we want. emoticon
    2099 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon You have come a long way since joining sparkpeople. Keep up the great work. Many of us have that stomach area we wish would melt away, unfortunately for us you just can't choose to will it away even with diet and exercise, it will get in shape when it is good and ready to to so. You have achieved some forever lost pounds, thats fantastic. As for gaining back after being sick, it is usually the case as many of us have been there too.
    2099 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/20/2012 5:15:29 PM
    You've done a great job.......... emoticon
    2099 days ago
  • TANYA602
    Yes! You have lost 37 lbs! Jump for joy! And it hasn't been easy, yet you stuck with it and then some. I think you look beautiful, happy , younger, and yes, thinner! We've been here together almost the same time and I am so proud of all that you do. You are an amazing mom and wife, and you are doing something for yourself that will have a lasting impact on your family. Rejoice!
    I went thru a stage two weeks ago where I didn't think much had changed. Luckily DH pointed out all the changes and before long I realized that we are not the same people we were 5 months ago. It's really kind of cool.
    Keep going!
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    2100 days ago
  • MISSG180
    There is definitely a change, and you look healthier -- and much younger!
    2100 days ago
    Congrats! I'm glad you wrote this today because I really needed to read it. I'm in the same boat as far as losing it and not really seeing a change. You are right though logic will win out.
    2100 days ago
    it's funny that you say you can't see it, then mention your dissatisfaction in the tummy area, because my thought when you said the first thing is that I could see it big time especially in your stomach area! The stomach area is so hard for all of us. It's my major issue too, still sticks out almost as far as my chest! I just watn my belly to go away, but after three kids, one of which caused my stomach fold over...yeah. Not going to happen. Still, you'll look skinny again. You'll go through a transition from obese to overweight, then from overweight to normal body size. It does happen, and it seems to happen pretty rapidly once it starts! You'll get there soon!
    2100 days ago
    I see the difference! It shows in your face and even your attitude in the picture. I love your hair grown out longer too. Very pretty!!

    2100 days ago
    Your doing amazing! I can see a difference!
    2100 days ago
    Sweetie, you are beautiful emoticon
    2100 days ago
  • ONUTHIN125
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Look at your smile in the second picture-it says it all! You go girl!!!!!!! Spark On! emoticon
    2100 days ago
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