30,000-39,999 SparkPoints 38,689

Something that is mine

Monday, June 18, 2012

This past weekend for me was well, boring. When I find myself in that position I find myself head first into a box of crackers. That got me to thinking once again about that role food plays in my life. I literally thought to myself on Saturday night, at least I have dinner to look forward to. Sounds pitful when I write it out but there are times when you just got nothing going. Specifically being that right now my budget is tight and it is hard to motivate when it is 110 degrees out. But still, it nags me to no end that food becomes the emphasis. Why can't I look forward to something else? I know in part what the answer to that question is, it is my struggle with depression. A battle I have been fighting for many years. So even though I could be doing something sometimes nothing is my alternative. I am working on that and it is a process. So, as I was getting ready this morning I starting thinking about making something other than food mine. Many people have lots of things that are theirs, a wonderful hobby (not for me), working out (I do it, but not the mine I am thinking of), a job they love (work in progress), a significant other (work in progress). Those are big things that come to mind, but what if I start small, with one little thing.

So tonight I will start that little thing with a book that I really want to read! I have at least 3 books going but nothing that really grab's me! I am going to open as many books as it takes tonight to make the book so mine that I don't wanna put it down.

What else can I inch my way to? Any suggestions on what works for you?
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I love to escape into a good book. My favorite reads are all in the sci fi/fantasy genre. Current favorite authors: Anne Bishop, Patricia Briggs.
    1979 days ago
    I think finding a good book is a great idea. I love when I find a good book that I just can't put down. I also enjoy pampering myself, especially when I'm feeling down. You could indulge in a nice bubble bath while reading your book, then put on some nice smelling lotion, and give your self a manicure and pedicure. When I do things like that it makes me feel more beautiful, which in turns lifts my spirits. I also look forward to dinner, it's my favorite meal of the day. When I have time I like to put on some music and enjoy a glass of wine while I cook a beautiful healthy dinner, with lots of vegetable.
    1979 days ago
    Been there! I know the oppression of depression, and how comforting crackers can be.

    Don't expect a job, a relationship, a hobby, or a workout be your MINE. That expectation will leave you disappointed again and again. Because any of that stuff can be lost.

    What's yours is YOU. And you seem like a smart, active woman with a lot going for her.

    Do you ever feel that's not enough? Perhaps that you're not [something] enough? Smart enough, thin enough, pretty enough, etc? That's what I've struggled with my whole life.
    A job, a relationship, a workout won't fix that feeling. It may for a while, but it won't last.

    I don't have any real answers, because I'm still struggling myself. My best advice is keep busy - boredom leads to snacking and to beating myself up. Then beating myself up FOR snacking.

    1979 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.