Something that is mine
Monday, June 18, 2012
This past weekend for me was well, boring. When I find myself in that position I find myself head first into a box of crackers. That got me to thinking once again about that role food plays in my life. I literally thought to myself on Saturday night, at least I have dinner to look forward to. Sounds pitful when I write it out but there are times when you just got nothing going. Specifically being that right now my budget is tight and it is hard to motivate when it is 110 degrees out. But still, it nags me to no end that food becomes the emphasis. Why can't I look forward to something else? I know in part what the answer to that question is, it is my struggle with depression. A battle I have been fighting for many years. So even though I could be doing something sometimes nothing is my alternative. I am working on that and it is a process. So, as I was getting ready this morning I starting thinking about making something other than food mine. Many people have lots of things that are theirs, a wonderful hobby (not for me), working out (I do it, but not the mine I am thinking of), a job they love (work in progress), a significant other (work in progress). Those are big things that come to mind, but what if I start small, with one little thing.
So tonight I will start that little thing with a book that I really want to read! I have at least 3 books going but nothing that really grab's me! I am going to open as many books as it takes tonight to make the book so mine that I don't wanna put it down.
What else can I inch my way to? Any suggestions on what works for you?