Monday, June 18, 2012
I'd been thinking about this as 'starting over' and feeling failure about having gained nearly 30 pounds in the last six or so months. I mean, how often will I have to say "I'm starting over" and rev up to it again? But really, I'm recognizing that I was doing well and losing weight, and then made different choices with sure gave me different results, and now I'm ready to work on making healthier choices in my life, and just get on with it.
There has been plenty of love and joy in my life during that weight gain, so starting over might feel like I'm devaluing those times. Not so -- but in the time ahead I want to enjoy feeling better, more verve and physical freedom, more self pride and delight in my body. Rather than my usual "Starting over again" I'm going to look at that time and weight gain like taking a detour on a long hiking trip; I wandered off the path thinking I'd enjoy it and it turned out to be overall, not much of a view.
So, I'm headed back to the path that I know will get me where I'm going, and continuing with that one. I've started by making some good staple foods to turn to as needed, some wonderful summer fruits and veggies, and even took my first kickboxing class to mix things up--exhausting but terrific! I'm sure as I continue the journey, the view will be wonderful, and the getting there an adventure!