Monday, June 18, 2012
After much deliberation, I have decided to make my "official" weigh in day Monday. For some peolple, Monday is a logical choice. It's the beginning of the week. However, weekends are my downfall. I often end up eating too much. My weight will go up on Monday. I stay strict for the next two days and my weight always ends up going down. I weigh myself every day, first thing in the morning. I think it helps me to stay accountable.
I have lost 23 pounds. I am 2 pounds away from my first goal: 190. I'm not going to lie: I have been disappointed by the results of my weightloss so far. I have lost 1/3 of the weight that I desired to lose, and it seems like it hasn't made any difference. My clothes still fit. A few people have noticed, but not many. My legs are still big. I don't feel like I have significantly more energy. I don't feel like my body has changed or gotten smaller. I still look the same. I am still overweight.
I'm really hoping that this next 25 pounds will make even more of a difference. It's taken me two months to lose the first 25. I'm giving myself 4 months to lose the next 25. Why 4 months? Well, I'm going on vacation in August and I'm starting to student teach in August. Two things that will shake my life up a little bit. Also, I get done student teaching October 26, and I feel like graduating school as well as hitting my second goal weigh are things that should coincide.
I think I will be able to visually notice a difference more in losing these 25 pounds. Because going from 215-190 is going from "fat" to... "Fat". Going from 190-165 is going from "fat" to "the large side of average". It will be going from a size 16 to a size 12... Maybe even a 10. That's wild to think about.
My final stage of weightloss, from 165-140 will probably be drastic too.
Part of me is tempted to try to get down to 115 because it would mean that I lost 100 lbs. 115 is awfully low, but I am only 5'5 so it's probably doable. I'm quite far away from that so I guess it's a bridge I can cross when I come to it. 75 pounds is pretty substantial.
Anyways, here are my goals: