Every morning I weight myself and every morning it says that same thing.... 155.?? Every morning. So I'm starting to get upset, mad, frustrated, sad, depressed, ready to quit, go on a binge and just eat what ever I want and sit on my jiggly butt and play Sims3 for next 3 months!
Did you know that sparks has this wonderful part that has reports? Reports on everything that you have logged in. EVERYTHING!! So last night I'm looking and trying to figure out why I haven't lost any weight at all! And what do I find out? That I've only been really doing this for a month and in that month I have had at least 6 Sonic chocolate milkshakes, 2 cheese burgers, 3 orders of fries, a box of Little Debbies snack cakes, a half gallon of ice cream, 3 can's of Pringles chips, 7 candy bars and 30 cans of Dr. Pepper. Now I know that's not a lot of bad stuff for a month, but when you really want to lose weight eating a 700 calorie cheese burger or a 900 calorie milk shake doesn't really help you out.
So why am I not losing weight? Well I would have if I didn't have all that junk. And why did I have that junk? ......... Well why not? I'm exercising right? I'm eating veggies for lunch and supper. I'm eating a good for you cereal for breakfast, I lost 20 pounds last year, I've had a stressful day, so why shouldn't I have little enjoyment in my life? WHAT A JOKE!!! JUNK FOOD IS NOT ENJOYMENT!! Junk food doesn't make anything better the only thing it does is make your body jigglier. If I want to really reward myself for being good or for having a stressful day I should go and spend that money on some new music or a movie or something tangible! Not something that will end up in the toilet!
I tell myself that I want to lose 20 more pounds. I'm tired of looking like I'm 4 months pregnant. I'm tired of my back, not my butt, my back jiggling when I brush my teeth. I'm tired of the inside of my pants wearing out. I'm tired of this jiggly stuff hanging on my arms. I'm tired of having this under my chin. I'm tired of being soft and squishy. And what do I do? I go and eat a bunch of junk that just voids all my effort . So all I'm really doing is wasting my time logging in all this stuff, exercising and watching what I'm eating. If I'm just going to keep shoving junk into my mouth then I should just stop wasting time on SP.
I know I have said that everyone deserves a treat now and again and that it's ok to eat bad 20% of the time. But what I'm doing is WAY more than 20 % of the time. Cause I don't log the Hershey Kisses, or the piece of candy and they add up very quickly. I don't even know how much of that I've had this past month.
so what to do, what to do?? give up ???? Get rid of the junk in my house ???? Stay busier ????? Put duct tape on my mouth ... hmmmm that might work! Cut a little hole in it so I can drink through a straw. .... just kidding. ........ Pay more attention to what goes into my mouth ?? ???? That might be the easiest and the best. Getting rid of the junk food just makes me want it more and I live in a house of skinny people that don't over eat the way I do. So this is my problem, not theirs, that I have to solve. I have to fix my eating habits. I have to watch what I eat. If I really want to lose weight and get rid of the jiggles than I have to do something about it.
Ok .... I'm done with the pity party. Think I will go do some exercising, wash some clothes, clean the kitchen, listen to some music, .....
HAVE A GREAT DAY !!!!!
I'd like to thank everyone for the support and your kind words. Your comments have really been a highlight for me. I never thought anybody would read my venting, much less comment on it. again thank you!!!