Sunday, June 17, 2012
I have realized I constantly tell myself I'm tired. I tell myself I don't have energy. I tell myself that I just need to rest. Well I have been telling myself this for too long. I have brainwashed myself into believing that I am all those things. I have convinced myself that I have no energy. I have let my emotional exhaustion manifest into physical exhaustion. I have believed the crap for too long. I have a couple of battles facing me. Heck I guess you could say I am going to war.
I have the getting healthy and the weight issue. The job issues are firing up (new boss and major changes) Then there is the typical worries, money, education, family, etc.
I have just tried to avoid the battles. I was tired but I don't think it is physical. I have let way to many things, people and emotions take up room and energy in my brain. At least that is what if feels like. It is kind of hard to explain. So I am taking my life back. It is going to be a slow and difficult process. I just have to remember to not give up. To keep fighting. Keep moving forward. Not let the little things knock me back. I have to win the war with myself so I can be strong enough to take care of the other things. I have to admit I am a bit scared. I use to feel so strong and I have felt so weak lately. So here I am going to rebuild and going to war.