Sunday, June 17, 2012
Okay... so In the past few years prior I was going from doctor to doctor.. even a gyno to get answers to my many different symptoms. I was mostly told
"Its in your head"
"pcos?? lose weight"
"wanna try antidepressants.. u seem depressed" (mind u, she JUST met me, all I said was I have been experiencing stomach pains)
So this past week I've had stomach pains and dizziness (which has occurred many times prior). Like any other human I decided to set an appointment. ...But the more I am sitting here and enduring cramping I am beginning to feel like its not worth the $25 co-pay I will have to pay. I mean, it will subside eventually...maybe. ::shrug::
But truly its kind of sad that a FAT person cant go to the doctor and get a proper diagnosis. I mean, how can PAIN be in my HEAD?????? or how can you say it might be PCOS... and not explain wtf that is or even truly test to see if it is the issue. I mean, they aren't even subtle with telling me they dont give a damn what my problem is.
Truly, I KNOWWWW I am fat and I need to lose weight. That is nothing new. I obviously understand that if I lose weight these things will be less of an issue.. but what about doing something for the HERE AND NOW. You dont tell a diabetic.. well, lose weight and it will go away. ...They might need MEDS/Insulin/TREATMENT that will prolong life until they get better.
I dont think its tooooo much to ask to be treated like a human. Like, on doctor literally sat across the room like FAT was a disease she could catch. ...REALLLLLLY?
Yea, I'm just ranting cause Im not feeling too great and this appointment is adding more stress than reassurance that I will find a solution. Nonetheless.... WE SHALL SEE WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS.. literally.