Friday, June 15, 2012
While mum's getting better, and I'm so thankful for all your thoughts & prayers, I happened to meet an ex-student of mine who also happened to be my friend.
Our friendship's lost forever and I wanted to know why he's angry with me.
He has failed his final university exam and said he stopped talking to me as he felt he has failed because a member of the exam commission was my enemy, and, according to him, he had failed because of this enmity.
I still wonder whether his interpretation is true as he performed poorly at the exam, anyway I called him because I wanted to reconcile.
He said he'd had enough of me as I was hysterical and did not care for him- actually, I told him I had tried all my best to help him in all circumstances and that I cared a lot for him.
I felt deeply wounded for his attitude, so I told him goodbye and went away.
Then I canceled all his detail from my cell., emails, and so on.
As I talked to my friend about this, I was struck by the fact that perhaps I was wrong, and should not feel bad over it.
People have the right to be angry with me as they have their own freedom of choice
I feel bad just as long I am depending on them, addicted to them.
If I let them go, I won't feel bad anymore.
I should try to stop being addicted to people,.....I don't want to be sorry for them, if they want to hate me, just let them-I want to be free from my addiction to people just as I want to free myself from my addiction to food- am I wrong?
Is there any similar experience you've had???????????