Thursday, June 14, 2012
I am noticing that when times get tough, I don't push through it with the same gusto. Sleep patterns have continued to be erratic and I need to jump up several times a night to attend to my sweet person... maybe 3 hour naps between most nights this past week if I am lucky. I am tired.... and it's almost 2am and again the chattering continues in the next room like a magpie at morning.
10 pounds until I reach my goal... well then again the scale broke and I am biding my time finding a new digital until I see SALE on the price tag. The old jeans still feel baggy, what energy level I have could still reflect the weight loss... but taking that last look in the mirror before I jump into the shower is disheartening. Frumpy old lady..... a roadmap of veins appearing more detailed as the months go on, despite desperate shrill pleas to creams and pills claiming to help increase circulation and decrease the appearance of the veins....it runs in the family and I don't think Dr Oz even has a good answer!
But I persist.... not with the same gusto in spite of short nights, and attention to every detail but definitely more t ime spent trying to reshape middle aged body on little sleep