Wednesday, June 13, 2012
First, I want to thank everyone that has cheered me on. It' means so much to have that type of encouragement and support in my life. As you all know, the unconditional acceptance here is amazing.
Today was my first full day of vacation time and I didn't do much! It was nice to sit and relax. I stayed within or below my nutritional ranges, but the areas I was low in weren't too bad. I know that I need to work on those. I did exercise today- I did 2 miles on the treadmill under 50 minutes! Otherwise, I literally lounged around all day long. It was a good day.
I used to eat raisins all the time as a child. I recently bought some again and now remember why I loved them so much- they're sweet and chewy. I need to start eating the fruits that I loved as a child. Lord knows I'm not big on trying new foods. It's almost like I have a phobia over it. Just another thing to work on. Not that that's a bad thing.
Tomorrow, I'm going to buy a grill. I love grilled food and I will find time to cook when I grill. I'm going to take all the recyclables into the recycle center too. There are a lot of things I want to get done but I won't if I look at the big picture. I plan on being busy but haven't made any set plans- except staying on track with my weight goals.
I weighed myself today and I am down to 278.5!! That is 16 pounds lost since I started SP and 20 pounds from my highest weight!!!! Although it wasn't easy and I thought many times about giving up, I'm happy now that I have stuck with it. I know that I'm nowhere near where I should be, but I do feel better than I did 2 months ago. I'm refusing to focus on how much I want (or need) to lose but rather what I've lost and how I feel.
My 44th birthday is less than a month away. OMG, I can't really be 44!! It will be the first time that I will see one of my sisters since I started SP. I know that she will be happy to see that I've lost some weight. I haven't talked to my family about my goals, it just seems easier that way. I'm hoping that she doesn't make a big deal out out if. I HATE to be in the spotlight.
I don't know when I will see my brother next, but I know what his reaction will be. All he will say is "Very good." He will be happy for me, but it will be hard on him. As my oldest sister (and now me) lose weight, he gains. I'm afraid that he has given up on being healthy.
My other sister will be in town sometime mid/late July. She is the one I dread seeing. There is nothing I can do that is good enough for her. Spending an evening with her is emotionally draining. Let me just say there are family members that I love far, far away. The less input I get from her the better off I am.
It's getting late and I think I've rambled enough. lol I'm hoping and planning on being busy tomorrow so I better get a good night sleep.