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    BETHGILLIGAN   34,256
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Missing in Action

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Geez, where does the time go?? Lots going on here! We got the boat in the river and have had some fun times down there already! I went to Sesame Place for 2 days with daughter and grandkids. I wasn't really looking forward to it (I've never like amusement parks) but didn't want daughter to go by herself and her hubby couldn't get time off. So, I went. I am so glad I did!! We had a blast!!!! Sooooo much fun!! I have never liked rides so I don't even remember my last park ride---40 years ago???? I went on 3 rides with my grandkids! So proud of me--I didn't even get sick!!! OK--so they were kiddie rides but they went up/down and round and round!!! That's tough for an old lady!! LOL My granddaughter thanked me for going repeatedly on the way home.
I'm in a bit of a funk with healthy right now. Haven't tracked anything for a couple of weeks. Haven't walked in a couple of weeks at least. Just feel very blah about it. I've been trying to be careful about my eating. The bad news is I haven't gained an ounce. Maybe I would get moving if I did start to gain. I have been on Spark since December 2009 and I think I weigh about what I did then. I've lost and regained and gone through times like this when I'm doing nothing and still hang at the same weight. My body seems to like it here. But, although I weigh the same I don't look that great without moving---doughy, pudgy, a bit more than fluffy. I know, I know! I keep saying this is about healthy and not so much about weight but................I obviously have a hard time instilling that attitude in my brain!!! My son gets married July 2013 which gives me a year. I'd like to lose 10 pounds, would be happy with 5 but that little voice in my head says I will probably be right where I am right now. Hmm, a bit of sabotage????
I think this blah feeling has impacted my entire interaction with Spark. I'm not tracking, etc. I'm not blogging; not writing or responding much to my dear Spark friends. Just feel like I don't have much to share. Although, I still love all of you and am happy to read your entries and blogs, it seems I have nothing to say in reply.
I'm not depressed---I feel fine and, actually, things are going well right now. Well, I do have a sick dog which worries me but everyone else is fine. My son has been great since he got engaged--very open, conversational, up.
So life is good for me right now except for Spark and exercise. I seem to have a really hard time getting it "all together" at the same time!!!!!!
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SUEJENN 6/18/2012 11:12PM

    It's like living on te top floor and the elevator is broken. It's hard to get the initiative to climb up the stairs. Although it is essential the timing is up to you. Everyone needs a break now and again.

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RWETHAIRYET 6/18/2012 7:17PM

    I've been struggling for months now with trying to get out and get moving. The renovations took up sooo much time. And then the move, and dad's passing and the adjusting to the longer commute and trying to get settled into the new home. I kept finding excuses not to move.
But this seems to be the magic week where things are starting to come together. I got in a nice little beginner (test) hike on Saturday and today I took running gear with me and used a trail near work to start a new running program. So hopefully things are falling into place and I'll end up on a roll.
Amusement parks wouldn't be my first choice either, but I'd love to go with my grandkids. Maybe I'll have to get the 2 3 year olds up here and we can head to storyland...hmmmmm...


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SCOOTER4263 6/17/2012 4:41PM

    I was always very popular at amusement parks, because I would watch all the kids while the grown-ups went on those dreadful rides. Really, why in the name of God would someone want to experience 8 Gs and then *flip upside down"??? I will only go on merry-go-rounds, and even then, I prefer the stationary creatures to the up and down ones.
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I've discovered that for me, checking in regularly at SP keeps, at least in the back of my mind, the concepts of health and wellness going. Doesn't mean I do anything about them necessarily, but they're in there, like Jiminy Cricket.

I've been a member of SP since 2009, and in the first three years I *gained* thirty pounds. Still, how much would I have gained if I hadn't had old Jiminy Sparks whispering in my ear?

You have so many wonderful things going on in your life right now - concentrate on them instead of the parts that aren't 100%. Go back to your blog and mentally erase all the bits about how you aren't quite measuring up (in your own eyes - we all think you're wonderful!) I think sometimes we sabotage ourselves by concentrating on calories and minutes and grams instead of on the joys that are right at hand.

People keep saying (and I agree) that what we pay attention to in our lives is what expands, (no wisecracks!) So give your attention to your loved ones, and the fun on the boat, and the renewed relationship with your son and don't set your precious attention and energy on what "isn't working." Set your mind to enjoying big salads and wonderful summer fruits, take a walk or a swim *because it's enjoyable*, not because SP says you must.

I believe you'll lose the weight you want to lose. Even if you don't, though, your life will have been filled with joy and fun and family, and there are a thousand, a million, thin, wealthy people who would trade in a heartbeat.

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LOL Once again, my comment is longer than the blog. I have to work on this.

Comment edited on: 6/17/2012 4:42:21 PM

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CANNIE50 6/15/2012 12:28AM

    I read that Jane Isay book, as well. I love your point about their being plenty of good coming from the things you DO NOT say, rather than expending energy trying to convey solutions to problems that may or may not be considered problems by him. Just today, I have been practicing saying less and, actually doing less, in terms of my 19 year old son who is home from college for the summer. It is NOT easy and I have a long way to go in terms of truly letting go with him. I am glad you are feeling better about the relationship between you and your son. Ihope you told your husband you are finally hearing him now - better late than never! emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 6/14/2012 10:01PM

    I'm so glad to see one of us doing fun things. I would love to get out boat in the water. It needs cleaned up.

I would also love to go to Sesame Place or anywhere really that doesn't involve my husband's ignorant family and work. LOL. I'm not ready for rides though unless they are for toddlers. LOL.

I feel like dog dookie too. I am trying to eat better and get more exercise in but I still feel horrible.

I sure hope the sick dog isn't anything serious.

I am so glad to see areas of your life looking up. Maybe there is some hope for me.

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DMF2012 6/14/2012 5:14AM

    Where is Sesame Place? It's good to move around - keep it up!

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NORASPAT 6/13/2012 10:18PM

    BETH, I am sorry to tell you this even ni you are in great shape you will feel better with moving. You will continue to have good health, thats good but moving id good for every process. We were made to be survivors so we should not be sitting all day long.
It's easy to give up Spark but do try to keep your body tuned up. I bet you keep your car tuned up. I have heard my DH say if we dont run the truck it will need a lubrication so it runs well. We should take it for a ride so the engine will not seize up we hear it all in reference to the expensive automobile but we should consider making sure our bodies are moving. You can be in great shape and obviously you are since you are looking great. JUST remember your body needs to move to stay helthy. HUGS take care. No lecture on eating right. Not even on moving right but please for the good of your health move. I bet you moved at the fun park and felt energised there. HUGS Pat in Maine.

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CELIAMINER 6/13/2012 9:58PM

    Beth, you sound so happy! I think Meadsbay nailed it--you found the right balance. Good for you!

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MEADSBAY 6/13/2012 9:03PM

    You know, life is all about finding that happy balance between
having fun-
taking care of yourself and others
and getting everything done and done well-
all in a timely fashion.
No wonder we fall into bed exhausted at the end of each day!
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SNUGLBUNIE 6/13/2012 8:23PM

    Was wondering where you were. We all get into these ruts sometimes. I know I have, but I keep on persevering to get out of it and not let it take over my life. It's good that you blogged about it and maybe it will motivate you. I know you can loose those 5-10 lbs :) Have faith!

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PINKNFITCARLA 6/13/2012 7:16PM

    Welcome back Beth! Glad you had so much fun at the park and so happy to hear your son is happy!

I can totally relate to 2009. That's the year I lost almost 50 lbs and now almost THREE years later, here I sit still not to my goal. I have lost and gained the same 10 lbs so many times I've lost count. I managed to get myself re-motivated this past weekend and I'm happy to say I've actually had an on-point good week so far!

We can do this!

Carla

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LESLIESENIOR 6/13/2012 5:28PM

    If it gives you any solace, you have helped me through the end of my career. I have so appreciated your wise words and support when I was overwhelmed!! I knew that you understood all of the details and components of my stress from experience. So I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.
If there is anything that I can do to help you, please let me know. I think you sound absolutely wonderful, as you said. So the healthy part is just an ongoing awareness of overall eating and moving. You are doing that with all your boat fun and grand kid fun and other chores and activities. I am thrilled for your son. What a great relief. I have faith that your relationship will continue to grow stronger. You have begun to let go and he is moving closer.

Blessings to you, Beth.
Leslie


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