Wednesday, June 13, 2012
So I know this is a prett profound statement but the Andrea I was 2 years ago wouldn't recognize the Andrea I am now. Or at least that is how I feel when I look in the mirror. I don't know where my motivation is..I think it's on a different continent. And I don't understand myself. Last week I got up 4/5 times in the morning, I was eating well, I got my 300 weekly minutes in and I was doing great.
Then this week it's just like BLEH! I haven't been getting up in the morning, I've been eating junk here and there and I weighed myself at the beginning of the week and gained 8 pounds since my last weigh-in which was 6/1. I don't know how that happens! So I saw a number on the scale I have NEVER seen before.
My whole life has changed since I got engaged, both for the bad and good. The wedding took up ALOT of time in April and May and now it's June and we are kind of in a lull. So I have to get myself back into some routine. But several things have changed:
1. I work from 8-5 now. I'm still waiting on 7:30-4:30 hours which I'll probably get soon. It was alot easier to get up when I was 8:30-5:30 and the traffic was much better. I get stressed out every morning w/ traffic b/c the main road into downtown is getting tore up and we have to go the detour.
2. Most of my cardio has been put on hold. My heel starting hurting in March. I kind of babied it for a month and a half and then finally did a dose of steroids. But I can't do step, interval training or run very well. I don't know how long I have to give up these activities. I'm just hoping not for the rest of my life!
3. The barn. I now have a 13-year old that is going to be riding my horse on Tues/Wed during the week. In the fall she is going to do a 1/2 lease with me. But it's weird like tonight when I could go ride and I can't b/c she's going to be there. But I told her she could and it's fine..it's just weird and another change.
4. So because I can't go to the barn or step or interval training at night this is causing Ryan and I to be spending much more time together. And while I love him, he is starting to drive me nuts. We just started having combined money last month and ever since then it's been all about money and how much I spend and bla bla bla. Although I see his point we don't need to obsess about it constantly..it's not going to change.
And I think his constant bla bla bla-ing is making me kind of in a funk. Like I want to just go into my room and sleep. That is not me at all..hence why the Andrea from 2 years ago wouldn't know who I am. But I am also reasonable enough to know I've been through constant changes for the last 6 months. So I just need to find my nice "zen" again.
My new plan is something like this:
I can go to the barn Mon/Thurs which will get me out of the house.
On Tuesday I can go to spinning which is a nice change, wont' hurt my heel and will get me out of the house.
On Wednesday I can go to centergy which will be nice and calming for the middle of the week. And after that I can either elliptical/walk or swim if I choose to do so.
I think that is the key..just do things to get me out of the house and active again! I'm also going to get my bike ready and might start bike riding. I think that is what I need to do to make myself feel better because it sucks being in a funk.
I think Ryan will lighten up alot once the honeymoon is paid for. It's alot of money and we are trying to save while becoming used to sharing money. And if you are part of a couple then you know most people have squabbles about money. My fiance is just a worry wort about it. But my mom says I just need to ignore it and I actually have started to and I do feel better. I can't let his negativity transfer to me and get me down. Because it makes my stomach in a knot and that isn't good.
So there is my new plan! Man it helps to blog it out!