Wednesday, June 13, 2012
I don't even know where to begin..it's been over 9 months since I last blogged. I guess I'll start with an update, since my last blog (ditching the scale) I am back to weighing myself. I weighed for the first time in the last 5 months when I got back from my semester in Spain. While over there, I found myself binging a lot on chocolate (nutella especially). To make things worse, I had an option of 3 or 4 different stores within 5 minutes walking distance from my apartment that I could run to for junk food (compared to here in the US where it is a 30 min. drive to walmart, the only place I ever really buy junk food, so I don't go out and drive there just for binge food). So when I got back, I knew I had gained weight, but I thought maybe only 5 pounds or so. When I stepped onto the scale, I was shocked to see the number. It was in the 170's, which meant I had gained 12-ish pounds during my time in Spain. Also shocking was to see that 170 number, because that was more than I had weighed when I first started this journey. And I remember back when I started, I was 167 pounds, and I vowed I would never return to that number and more importantly never reach the 170's. And now here I stood, into the 170's.
This was really hard for me, especially since I thought that I would lose weight in Spain and only eat healthy food and not buy junk food since I was on a tight budget. And I don't know what the emotions/issues were behind my binging so much while I was over there. So here it was, May 2012, I had expected to come back to the United States and have everyone comment on how skinny I was and how much weight I had lost, and the reality was completely the opposite. I had gained weight and was heavier than I had ever been.
So that's the update on life, since that day I have been weighing myself every day just for curiosity's sake. My goal is to lose 15 pounds (get into the 150's) by the time summer is over. This goal just started last Wednesday, and the first few days I was doing really well, but the past 2 days I bought junk food and have been eating too much of that and not waking up to do my workout. But I am going to make better decisions starting at this very moment, the first good decision was to write this blog:)
And I'd like to thank SRBROWN2 for commenting on my page yesterday, thank you for thinking of me and it means a lot, especially since I haven't been around much! I haven't been having the greatest week but it can only get better!