I have to confess! I cheated. Normally, my weigh-in day is Wednesday, but yesterday I felt so impatient and got on the scale. YAY, I really lost some weight, not as much as I had hoped- thanks to the T.O.M, but a loss is a loss. I didn't track it though. I was secretly hoping that I would loose some more till today. Well, I did even though it wasn't that much. So since I joined this wonderful site I have lost about 6lbs. I am sure it could have been more if it hadn't been T.O.M in the past few days and if I had drunk more water,too. Lately, I have been having troubles with my water intake. Not really sure why, but I found it so hard to drink my 8glasses a day. I am working on that problem. And talking about confessions. UGH! I guess I have been bad! To start with something positive: TRacking food has become a habit and I never forget to do it, but the bad tings is that I went over my calories twice (although most of the times I am below my calorie range). Or isn't it a bad thing? As some of you know I have been kinda obsessed with old Biggest Loser-episodes. I think it is so amazing what they accomplish there and I also learn new things on the show. One thing has made me wonder whether it was my problem as well. Maybe I just don't eat enough!?! On the show the trainers talked to some of their contestants that they need to eat more or their body will go in a starvation mode. I am hardly ever hungry but as mentioned above and in many blogs before, I am below my calorie range most of the time (like 5 out of 7days). So maybe I need to eat more, to loose more weight and faster? I am confused about this and I agree with the contestants on the show who say that its a mind thing. Anyways I will try to eat "more" in the next few days. So no fat free or low fat yoghurts this week for me and I bought some walnuts and if it is working then I will do the happy dance HAHA.
The next construction area-HA- is my low confidence. I think it's one of my biggest problems and I am not sure how to fix it! Well, here is the story. A few blogs ago, I wrote about the guy I like. We have been talking on the phone or texted each other for the past couple weeks and every day. He has mentioned to hang out before, but of course I am totally scared and feel ashamed he won't like me since we haven't seen each other in years. Then the following happened. I didn't hear from him in about a week
I know he doesn't have to justify, but I was depressed. If those things happen, I always think I messed up somehow. I know it is pathetic. The first day, I didn't hear from him I was just sad. We don't need to talk every day, although I really enjoy it. Everything was still ok. But then after day two and three of not talking, I got worried and questioned myself if there is something seriously wrong with me. I came to terms with the fact that it is all my fault and that I scared him away. And guess what? The reason why I didn't hear from him was my cellphone
. Cellphone service at my house sucks at times and I forgot to take my cell with me when I left the house these days. So after a couple of days not hearing anything, I got a couple text messages from him and that I missed some calls. Duh me! Now he has my email-address and the number for the house phone. I am still scared of seeing him in person again and I hope I can loose a few more pounds until then. Okay, I know that you shouldn't loose weight for a guy, but it sure is a great motivation for me. He even keeps me from eating out of boredom-without knowing though.
To sum it up I have a few things I have to work on:
- eating more, so I will always be in my calorie range
-drinking more water
-working out (I didn't mention it above, but I always have to force myself to get my ass up before a workout and then I feel so good after it)
- my low confidence
Hope everyone has a great day!