Wednesday, June 13, 2012
I'm starting the process of refinancing the mortgage(s) so that my husband can continue staying home with the kids. It's been so nice not having the stress of having to deal with my mother-in-law on a daily basis and I think the kids have really blossomed being home with Daddy. If this doesn't work we are going to have to scramble to get him a job so I'm very nervous about it...about either situation, really. I'm trying to trust that we will (by some miracle of fate) be able to refinance quickly or that something else is going to work out for us but I can't bring myself to believe it.
Haven't really felt like eating for at least a week. I'm so nervous about our future...nervous that we can't refinance, nervous that he won't find a job, nervous that I'll have to have my MIL watch my kids again. Deep down, I'm convinced that we are going to lose everything. I'm overwhelmed, anxious, and depressed.
I just want to know what to expect again. I don't like feeling totally out of control like I do right now. Trying to just breathe...