Wednesday, June 13, 2012
I just realized that it really has been a while since I was frustrated saying things like 'I hate myself, I am sooo fat!!!' 'I look horrible' or grabbing my love handles in disgust. I truly cannot remember!
Today I reached the goal I set myself for my 41st birthday, going from 80kgs to 67kgs. It came about three weeks later than planned, that last half kg was so stubborn to shift, but voila, it is gone. The me that is left over is a me I have learned to like again. I know, looking at other people losing an amazing life changing amount of weight, my 13kgs are nothing to brag about. But for me, those 13kgs make the difference between unhappy and happy. I feel I crossed the line from looking and feeling fat, to looking and feeling like a healthy person.
I struggle when I look for photos that would make good 'before and after' shots, like so many of you have up on your site. Because there probably isn't much for other people to see. But what I realized is that it made such a big difference for me myself, it is the picture I see of myself, that has changed so much. I feel like another person. Last Saturday I played softball in the parent's team, against different teams, mostly guys around my age, and I no longer felt the need for covering my behind with long and baggy T-Shirts, I felt ok and proud of myself. And sure enough, I hit all my pitches into the outfield, and was even asked to join the women's softball team for real. I had great fun.
I also found that Yoga changed me also. It makes you realize how strong your body can be, and how important modesty and discipline is. I love it, and I will certainly keep it up.
And again, thank you to all my SparkFriends for believing in me, for sharing your journeys, who make it so enjoyable logging in every day. Until the next time...