Tuesday, June 12, 2012
I'm having another good day - energy up, mood up, lost another 0.6lb. But I'm finally starting to feel that this juice fast is about more than weight loss and detox.
This morning, we had a really bad storm - strong wind was blowing everything around, the rain was flooding the ground, the lightning would light up darkest night and the thunder was so close my house literally shook - the glasses were making noise! But I really didn't care, after all, it was just a thunderstorm.
Then my dh called to check on me, how am I doing with the storm and everything. And that's when it hit me!! For the past 3 years (after we moved to Louisiana and I saw how destructive these thunderstorms can be on occasion) a simple thunderstorm or a windstorm would bring me to the brink of an anxiety attack! If it was night time, I'd wake my dd and move her into our bed,so I know she's safe. If it was during the day, I'd crank up the TV or the stereo, or bury my head under pillows. All that while focusing on my breathing. And today - NOTHING!!
The storm was just a storm. Like every other time (last 3 years not included). My anxiety has been non existent since the start of the juice fast, but I would have not guessed I'd weather big storm that well (pun intended)! I was excited when I found out I no longer suffer from anxiety. If you suffer from anxiety, you know what I mean. And if you know someone with anxiety issues, you tell them my story. Because this is pretty mind blowing!!
Anyways, on to day 15 - my halfway point!