Tuesday, June 12, 2012
I am still incredibly wiped out! 3 workdays this week, but two are taken by training for common core. So, my kids and assistant and I had to finish cleaning out and packing up my classroom yesterday, except for my computer because I still haven't managed to have my end of year conference with my principal!
When my assistant got to school, she cornered me to discuss her EOY conference. She said that the principal talked to her about whether she wanted to continue in my classroom, and that she was strongly looking at transferring her somewhere else. She asked me if I wanted her back. I was very honest with her. I told her that, if I felt I had her support as I did the first year we were together, then yes, I would have her back. However, if she felt the was she did this year and I felt I didn't have her support, I would not want her back. I asked her if she wanted to stay, as she has acted and hinted that she didn't, and she said she did. I told her that if she was just going to "make it through" the year, as she commented previously, then I could not have her in there because that is how I had felt this year. She went on to say that another teacher was the only one who would have her, and that would mean I would get her assistant (who has subbed for us, and is scary!) I haven't had my meeting with the principal yet, but I know this is going to be a big part of that discussion.
Got home after 5:00pm last night, but it was raining, so I couldn't unload the van. As I was taking a minute to check Facebook, I saw a post from a distant cousin. My great-aunt, sister of my Grandma that passed away last month) passed away Sunday night. I knew she hadn't been doing well. She's had Alzheimer's for about 10 years, and other health issues, and was 93. She had not been eating well and lost a lot of weight since Grandma died. I called my mom to talk to her about it, and ended up being the one to tell her. She hadn't checked email, so she didn't know. Funeral arrangements are up in the air. Aunt Margie was in Florida, her siblings who are still living are in Alabama and Colorado, then there are all her nieces and nephews in Alabama, Colorado, NC, and Tennessee. Two amazing, strong women, who have been a huge influence on my life, have been lost in the past month. It is hard, but they were in their 90s and really, they were well into their 80s before it occurred to me that they were old! They both lived long, full lives and were strong examples to their family!
As I was talking to mom at 9:00pm, the rain stopped, so I got the kids and dh to help me unload the van (which was piled to the ceiling with stuff from school) in the dark and move everything into the storage building. Dh joked that he was going to rent me a storage space. But everything fit into the building (except the things I was afraid would be damaged by the heat out there).
One more training day tomorrow, my meeting with the principal before/after the training (depending on how long it takes), braces Thursday, online class craziness due to my professor's pregnancy difficulties, and in need of a real break! Just signed up for an autism training in July, so I really only have 1 week off this summer before we go back Aug 2! Depending on what happens with my assistant, I may have to be doing interviews that week!
Next year, I should have less students and less stress, as my mentor and I are already looking at ways we can plan more together! We'll see how that turns out.
Was focused on my health, but I am struggling again with the stress. Hope I can keep up my nutrition and build the motivation for exercise. Took a much needed rest day yesterday. Not sure it is going to happen today either.