Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Yesterday June 11 would have been Jasons' 30th birthday.
I still miss him and Sean more than I can say. They will always be alive in my memory and my heart.
I spent the day with a friend and then the evening with Jasons' mom and younger brother and dedicated the day to him just as I would have had he been beside me.
I am an adult and I understand that pain of loosing someone that was as close to me as Jason and Sean were will lessen and it has.....I have many other things that go on in my daily life that I stay busy with. However, the pain is just as sharp and as deep as the day I knew I would never again see their faces, hear their voice or hold them close. This is as inevitable as the sun rising and setting worse at night when the responsibilities of the day and my life take precedence. I will hear a song, see something, smell something or do something that will remind me of one or both of these men and the effort to remain standing would make the legendary Zeus buckle under it's weight.
I have to work hard everyday to keep my perspective moving forward. Some days it's not as difficult but there is not a second of a minute of an hour in what remains of my life here and whatever my afterlife has been fated that I will not think about them with love, respect, honor and gratitude that they shared their life with me. I am a better person for having traveled beside them for the 11 years I knew them.
..............Feliz Coupleanos, Te amo mi vida......Tu es mi vida and mi corazon.....Siempre tuyo.............
Translated means, Happy birthday, I love you my life, You are mi life and my heart. Always yours.