Tuesday, June 12, 2012
I haven't stepped on the scale in over two weeks now.
I've been taking two Bikram Yoga (hot yoga) classes a week. And I feel like it's doing wonders. It was that jump start I needed to give my body. Don't get me wrong, I've been working out six times a week, but it was the gym. This is something EXTRA! I like the extra. I like knowing that twice a week I am doing probably one of the harder yoga workouts, with other people.
Clothes are fitting better. Yesterday I realized that I had accidentally dried my work pants (something I don't like doing because they shrink up a little). Apparently it didn't matter, they were still loose.
Recently there has been no movement on the scale when I get on it once a week. I'm over 10 days overdue in taking my measurements and 2 weeks overdue on weighing in. So each time I'm at the gym, I pass the scale and guilty look at it. Like that work project you know you have to do, but really don't want to deal with quite yet so you keep shuffling it to the bottom of the stack.
I've officially reached a terror point. So much effort on my part and the needle hasn't dipped beneath 258 in over a month. And with this new workout, I feel like I'm going to be disappointed the same way. Regardless of the need for a belt at all times with jeans. Because they are still tight in the thighs and hips, just very loose around the waist. And those work pants, are definitely looser, but not falling off yet, so I can only say that things are getting toned. But if I get on that scale and it says the same thing it's been saying the past month or so, I'm afraid I might get completely dejected.
It's not like me to avoid confrontation. I don't like having things up in the air, so I generally like to face them, head on. But you can only read the same number so many times without starting to wonder what you are doing wrong.
The boyfriend has made a good point. My body might be starving itself. I workout so much and my diet is still greatly reduced in calories (1600-1800) a day. However, Sparkpeople has recently switched my caloric range to 2250-2500. It goes against everything I've been taught to try to eat healthy fat foods. It's just frustrating some days.
So, at some point in the next day or so, I'm getting on the scale again. I'm just hoping the result doesn't make me want to indulge in a pint of Haagen Daaz when all the hard work isn't changing the numbers.
I just have to keep moving.