Monday, June 11, 2012
that's just sad.
I have gained at least forty pounds since that picture as well... I think I was about 235. I am 280 pounds today. Or I was... This past week something magical seems to have happened. I GOT it. I have tried to "track" my progress before, but I was no where near any of the targets and I quickly lost any confidence. I guess all the steps I have taken over the past few years finally clicked... and everything is falling into place...
My pantry is ready to go. It took one good shopping trip to stock up on fresh produce and there are a few items on my wish list... but right now I have ample to start with, and more than enough to get on my feet. I have been tracking the last four days, and I am just so excited! Every day I have barely even reached my caloric goals... I mean... I haven't eaten ENOUGH!! Each night I am looking at a 200 calorie deficit and wondering what I can eat to bring up the numbers, but I am FULL already!! I have never been in that position before... EVER. I had heard about it, but it seemed elusive, almost like a fairy tale somehow.
I have to thank this Dr. Fuhrman and the PBS program that came on TV the other night "Eat For Life"... I saw it about to come on and thought to myself... I need to watch this. I have realized the last wee while as my blood pressure continues to go up, the swelling of my feet and hands gets worse, and my diabetes becomes more prominent that I might be months away from a heart attack or stroke... if that!! My body has been desperately trying to get my attention, and I knew I had to listen, but I just didn't seem to know how. So... I sat down with a note pad and pen, and watched this show.
Two hours later I stood up in a completely different life. From that moment forward I have been able to make different choices and eating decisions. I have a whole new priority structure that just plain makes sense to me. I am not going on any "fad" diet... I am not excluding carbs for proteins, or eliminating fats altogether, but I am now able to make choices about what types of fats I will ingest into my body to make sure they are jam packed full with as many micro-nutrients I can muster.... Why use even the preferred "healthy option" of olive oil, when I can incorporate whole foods like nuts and seeds to acquire the same oils?
Anyways, I am on a roll and already feeling the benefits, although there are still ups and downs, there is no turning back... I have not only come back this time... I have Arrived! :D