So of my 60 or so lbs. lost, I have gained back 28.

I have continued healthier eating...but I slacked on the one thing that I know helps me mentally and physically. I haven't really been to the gym in months. I am disappointed in myself. There's no way around it.

I have been a single mom to my 2 beautiful kids for the last year now. I wouldn't change a thing. (Well Almost...) I have run errands at lunch, rather than going to the gym because it has been "easier" while they are at school. I have gone home to clean at lunch. Because it was "easier".

In my head, I said "Next week I will go to the gym 3 times." and then I never did. I have child care at the gym now. I have no excuse.

The funniest part about the whole thing is when I am going to the gym. I mentally feel great! I have more patience. I am more relaxed. I am happier....and my spirit is brighter. What the hell am I waiting for?!!? My gym bag has been IN MY CAR this whole time. D'oh. The only thing I would change about this past year is I wouldn't have neglected myself. I would have gone to the gym at every opportunity.

So here I am, putting this out into the digital world. I guess I am trying to hold myself accountable. I AM GOING TO THE GYM AT LUNCH TODAY.

After all, I am trying to get healthy....but really, I am going to have to eventually jump back into the dating world. Frankly, I want to look HOT.

I'm going to let June be my New Year.... June 11th....Let's get back to me. I'm no good for anyone else (kids, work, friends, potential relationships), if I can't be good to me.