Sunday, June 10, 2012
Okay so now my first week has come and gone. There is so much I still don't know. I'm allowed to ask for help, but it gets crazy busy in there and so there's no way to ask someone for help. How am I going to get better if all I do is watch someone else? I've been watching since I graduated and it's not helping. I need to do it. I'm more hands on. I don't know. I don't want to mess up anyone's hair. Feeling like I haven't learned enough is so stressful. I really don't know what to do. My friend is going to be working for a makeup store. I love makeup. I taught myself how to use it, and I am obsessed with it. I have a huge collection. But of course my husband doesn't understand why I don't want to do hair now. I just don't feel like I know enough, and I'm afraid that I'll start getting written up at the salon for people coming back in for their haircuts to be fixed. I just feel that I'm not good enough I guess...what a crappy feeling. Something you went to school for and you feel you aren't up to par. I really don't know what to do from here. I think I'll only cut friends and family's hair and that's it. I'm going to give the salon more of a chance since it's only been a week, but I don't know if I'll stay there which really really sucks. Sorry this one is kinda sad but I really don't know what else to do. I'm happy to have a job, but who even knows if they'll keep me seeing as how I need a lot of work before I can cut hair well.