Sunday, June 10, 2012
humorously, today has been kind of funny. it's been one of those days where the glass is half full, or half empty. whatever your perspective.
so i met with a friend of mine for coffee this morning (6:30 am) and we talked of our husbands, our kids, our churches, and our animals. --and i had to borrow my daughter's car because the brakes went out yesterday on mine.
my binging was so bad this week that i gained 3 lbs. but my daughter who was worried sick was shocked and surprised she lost 1.5 woo hoo! (the school offered free lunches instead of her making them, and she was worried about their choice of foods..)
i couldn't stand it any longer. i was going to get a new purse by golly. i HATED my new purse that i have been trying to deal with for 3 weeks. and i got one. and i am ecstatic about it!
and my card got stolen. and we go on vacation in DAYS and how in the world am i gonna get a new one in time whine whine whine... i need some cheese with that.
and my new partner wrote me--but i didn't know she wrote me even though i kept checking because i discovered i was having a problem with my email at 12:30 am... yikes! i did a temp fix and permanent fix will go into place tomorrow.
and today--i don't know about tomorrow, but today, i am absolutely done with binging. i am sick of it. i am done. i am so disgusted with it i want to puke. and i haven't (amen)--but i stopped the binging at around... 6pm this eve. now i am fervently praying that if this time is not "the time" that i get convicted before the next binge. i know of countless times over the years when i said "i am done" and i have gone right back to it. and i wanted that time to be the last.
so this time, if this is not the last time in my heart, i find it, i get the blessing of repentance from God to make this my last time, and to never ever ever do this again.