Ahh!!! Why do I have the best of intentions and start well but soon sabotage myself!
Saturday, June 09, 2012
I'm a bit annoyed now! Sorry I know I'm ranting but can;t help myself. Need to rant somewhere and I feel I can be the most honest here.
Over the last few days I've realised I've neglected my fitness and have been eating a bit unhealthy so have made good resolutions - I want to not eat over 1,500 - 1,600 cals a day and be more fit. I've done relatively well. I have jogged twice in the last two days and done Push 1 and 2 of Chalean's Extreme. Today I set out what I will eat, all very healthily planned and executed. Until I went out! I had to help with a charity gig in South London this evening so went to that. All day was stressful and not helped by meeting a friend who is also volunteering on behalf - not only was she being a bit difficult, not being where she said she would be and then very hard to find! My first lapse was when despite knowing I've eaten a bit bowl of porridge and nuts / dried fruit 2 hours before that I was hungry and bought a 500+ falafel whole wheat sandwich from Pret. Lots of calories but I thought I needed to extra food before this charity thing so don't get too drunk on the few free beers I would have or get too weak ( I faint when I don't eat often). Stupid thing was that I was doing the raffle and was placed right near the desserts I had to sell. First I wanted to try a macaroon since never tried one but always wanted. Then I had a second. Then a third and tried a small chocolate cupcake. Why would I eat mindlessly on food I don't need but which I wanted because they look sweet and nice. I don't normally eat sweet things so why I have been eating too much of them lately! I think when I drink alcohol my resolve disappears and suddenly I will have the extra sweet thing / dessert / chips on way back home sometimes, etc. I'm terrible! AND I ended up having 3 beers and 1 bottle of cider even though I only planned 2 drinks. What can I do apart from say not again! Next time I will say no but probably will forget again! Not drink alcohol? Or limit even though I know my resolve goes as soon as I have 1 drink.
I've just looked it up and 3 tiny Marks and Spencer macaroons equal 180 calories!! 90 in the cupcake, 500 calories in the sandwich and over 350 calories in the drinks. Overall according to SP, I spent 1,149 calories in this ridiculous, not needed, entirely wasteful and hated binge! So annoying! That's why I am typing this rant at 1am in the morning. Tomorrow I will be good. Tomorrow I will do cardio, I will do the Push 3 video, and eat well within my limit!!!