I am so tired of fighting for everything I get. But yet, I don't fight to prove to myself that I am worth something. I feel like I have to help other people in order for them to like me. Even my family. I don't get a lot of support from them. My husband is always working, sometimes 20 hours per day, every day. My son is a teenager, enough said. I work from home so I get support from my cats but that's not quite the same. It seems as if I'm now living on medications. I take anti-depressants, anti-inflammatories, blood pressure and a buffet of vitamins. I know I need to get out and do something to fix that but because of the depression and the pain from arthritis I have no motivation and things hurt when I do. I'm not sure what else to do. I have been in therapy for almost 2 years and I keep going in circles. I think part of it is because of the lack of support when I get home. I feel like I do everything at home and if I ask for help, you'd have thought I asked them to build a new house with a pool or something. Enough said for today. I'll see what kind of a weekend we have.