Friday, June 08, 2012
This has been a boom of a week. I have been attending a chiropractor for the past year and a quarter, and at the beginning of the year we moved beyond healing and into health. I was able to discuss with my chiropractor the goals I have for my life, not just my personal health goals, but the big things like being a seriously successful writer and a powerful contributor to the world community. These adjustments have not just been an adjustment to my body, but to my life. Sometimes, after an adjustment, it is as if I need to hold on for the ride, as things within me connect in new ways and so cause the world around me turn in wonderfully different directions.
These shifts have changed who I am. I noticed that while travelling a couple of weeks ago, I was not as agitated. I like to travel, but in the past I have felt detached by the process. This time I was anchored in myself. I enjoyed the journey. I was able to relate to others better, and as a result they related better to me, too.
I have also begun to look at my long term goals in different ways. My children are growing up, and so I don't need to be as much of a hands-on mum anymore. I am leaving it up to them, and have changed my focus from making sure they have everything they need, to teaching them how to make everything they need for themselves. While there are times when a great deal of effort is required, these skills have big pay-offs for the kids. They are more independent and resilient. They take on larger challenges in the rest of their lives. They know they can achieve. What's more, our relationship has changed, and it is easier than it used to be because I don't need the vigilance I once required.
This means I can take my focus off their needs, and start thinking about my own needs. In practical terms, I have been able to take on my health and research commitments more seriously. I have begun to make plans for a different future, in a different place, with confidence that things will all turn out in a positive way. I have been able to invest in my personal needs, rather than in the needs of my children. Of course, they have the ability to meet their desires, they have pocket money and household responsibilities, but I am comfortable saying to them that they need to save for things, or do extra chores to earn what they want. With the older boys, who are really young men now (17 and 21 yo), I give them loans, and if I am short, they give me a loan. It's fabulous. I can now go to my children and say, "Hey, I have this goal to lose weight and get really healthy, can you guys help me with that?" rather than having to constantly do things on my own.
This week has been a week for moving into this new found consciousness. I have joined a gym, but not like in the old days, where I'd take out a membership and never go back. I read the exercise program I bought, and now understand how the heavy weight lifting and strengthening exercises work. I joined a gym and bought personal training. I spoke to my trainer and explained what I wanted because I was actually educated enough to speak clearly about my desires. I made the appointments, and had a session. All the work I had done over the past year left the trainer a bit amazed, as he watched me smash through over 60 squats and 30 push ups. He had to make things harder, to add reps to the weights and increase the weights I was lifting. I feel great. Not only that, I can share my successes with those I love.
I hope your week was just as powerful for you.
Kindness and light,