how i feel when i eat peanut m&m's
Friday, June 08, 2012
or any candy, for that matter.
i'm hoping to write this blog then remember to refer to it when sugar/chocolate/candy cravings occur. the only cravings i've really dealt with throughout my pregnancy are sugar. which is very odd. i don't usually crave stuff like that unless i'm pms'ing.
i'm trying to control the cravings cause lots of sugar can't be good for the baby, right? so after this bag i'm done! hopefully those aren't famous last words.
anyway, this morning i stopped and got a pack of m&m's on my way to work. now i'm eating them. not cause i'm hungry, but because i know they were in the drawer waiting for me to eat them. their crunchy shell, chocolatly middle mixed with a peanut were just calling my name. so i'm sitting here eating the whole bag. one or two would have been enough, but i can't let the bag just sit there uneaten. and they aren't that good! they are good while i'm eating them. very tasty. but when i'm done? i'll take a drink of water and forget all about them. except the damage has been done. the sugar is in me. the fat is floating around looking for a place to deposit itself. and what do i have to show for all this? nothing. a dollar poorer and 1/10 of a lb heavier. why do i keep eating junk food? it's not doing me any good and i'm getting nothing out of it. so stop! don't buy the candy. let someone else eat the ice cream. i just need to ignore the craving. i know if i can get passed it i will be fine. but if i cave in, i'll feel guilty and have just a moment of gratification.
i must focus on this and move on to healthier choices.