Friday, June 08, 2012
At least weekly (lately), I have let myself go and binged on crap food. Things like chips, or refined carbohydrates, or soda (but I do go for the calorie free kind, as if this is some kind of redemption). Then I don't do anything but eat. I totally feel guilty and in a bad mood. I think it's the weather too. It's been rainy lately here and I get down and depressed. I am so over this rain and ready for greater weather.
Another thing that I am worried about is that I am going over to see my boyfriend this weekend. He knows I am trying to lose weight and train for my next race, but he just eats whatever he wants and gives me grief for wanting to wake up early to run. "Do it later" he says. Yeah, I won't do it later. :-( I love living alone, so that I can do what I want, when I want (I guess that's the selfish side of me) . If I want to wake up at 5 to go to the gym; no one will hold me back but me.
I guess all I want out of this weekend (as far as weight is concerned) is that I want to lose weight (obviously), but I won't be disappointed if I just maintain.
Happy weekend to the rest of you!