My journal to a better relationship with food
Thursday, June 07, 2012
I first joined spark people a year or so ago, but never really used it until this spring... the advent of my 52nd birthday. It was time to get real. Something was off... why was my size not changing? I could feel the muscle. Muscle that was well camouflaged. okay, something had to change.
Last summer, my doctor recommended I join weight watchers. The thought of being weighed and/or measured in front of someone, anyone, was not up there on my list of ANYTHING to do. I am also not one to attend meetings, I like to do things on my time. She also said to log in my food choices -- boy, what a bother!!!
Let's fast forward to this spring. I ran my first 10 miler, the DC Cherry Blossom Race April 1. I was to run it with my daughter, but she got a badly sprained ankle the Thursday right before the race. I had to run it myself (with 10,000 plus people). At that time, I had been training for 5 months and had lost about 5 pounds... 5 POUNDS!!!! Are you serious??? 5 pounds after 5 months of running and/or working out 6 days a week??? No, it was not muscle that I was building. I had to fess up and be honest with myself.
Then the email for the spring boot camp challenge came. I took the challenge. What an eyeopener.... Tracking my workout and my nutrition showed how just how much I was eating, dang. It has been two months since that challenge started. I have lost about 10 pounds and bunches of camo!
Yes, I still have closet eater syndrome, but not as often. Also, I have realized that it is okay to slide occasionally, just not every day. One of my triggers is when my husband goes out of town (no one to witness my eating slide). Last night hubby was out of town and I raided the pantry repeatedly. Hubby is still out of town tonight -- but I ate appropriately.
Tomorrow is another day and another challenge (hubby won't be in until late at night.). I don't have to be perfect everyday. Just be smart on most days.