Thursday, June 07, 2012
For those of you reading this some might be a bit too much information. However, some of you might actually be able to relate to me and understand where I am coming from.
When I started this life change I weighed 329 pounds. I don't think that I ever realized how big I actually was. My clothes were tight and uncomfortable, I didn't feel cute when going out with my friends. I felt like a whale when I would take my kids to the pool. I was an emotional eater and a grazer. I don't think that I ever had any idea how many calories I was putting into my mouth. I was a soda addict.
I have changed, I only eat when hungry, I eat smaller portions. However, I do eat what I want. If I want a piece of birthday cake I am going to eat it, but it will be a smaller piece. I will share a desert, candy bar, or whatever it may be. I Zumba three times a week, I strength train, and I walk. I have lost over 40 lbs. I am a new woman.
I have dropped at least 4 dress sizes, one pants size, and all you ladies out there like me......wait for it.....ALL the panties in my drawer not FIT!!!!!! I think that was an amazing feeling. I would buy panties that I thought were cute, or would fit, only to be depressed when I tried them on at home. I have come so far and I can't wait to see where I will go. I am starting to feel sexy and attractive. While I may be single, this is for me! No one else. I am loving myself, and I am more confidant.
I am trying not to watch the scale and just be happy where I am. I will get to where I am going. My goal is to run The Chicago Marathon. Just once so that I can say I did it. I want my kids to be proud of me. This is why I am on this journey, I got tired of being fat, I want to be healthy, I want to feel good, I want to be alive when my kids are getting married and starting their families.
My mom made a slide show of me from when I started to now, just in pants and a bra. Part of me wants to post it, but the other part of me is terrified. But seeing the difference is amazing and it has motivated me. Maybe I will get the guts to post it sometime.....until then, I will just post updated pictures fully clothed :)