As I sit here, waiting yet again for the doctor's office to call me back for an appointment, I am trying to understand that I didn't fail, that my body needs more help, that I want to be under control, that I am tired of fighting all the time.
Now that you are all confused, I will explain. I did hear from my doctor's office this morning. My A1C didn't change from January when my doctor put me on a new oral medication. They were calling to see if I was taking the new medicine. Well, let's see...diabectic, blood sugars out of whack, and I wouldn't be taking my medicine????? I told the nurse yes I was and I was exercising and trying to eat right. She told me she would call me back after talking to the doctor, which she did. The word is the doctor wants me to make an appointment to talk about starting Lantus which is an insulin. The nurse transferred me to the appointment desk and lost me! When I tried to call back, of course you have to go through the "for this, press 1, for that press 2" and by the time I got to the appointment line, they were gone to lunch and I had to leave a message. So now I am waiting for them to call back.
I would really love it if I could go in today which won't happen but would be nice. Tomorrow morning would be good as well. I just want to do this if we are going to do it. I have family coming in on Saturday and want to not have to interrupt the visit if I can help it.
I just really hate these phone trees that mean you can never get a real person. I am tired of waiting for phone calls today. I mean, I have things I have to do. Right now I am just frustrated with the process. Let's do this already. I am glad that I will have the summer to get used to insulin and how I react to it. I want, I need my blood sugars under control for all kinds of reasons. Why do doctor offices not realize this! Oh, yeah right I am not their only patient!
I will let everyone know what happens.