I lost 45lbs since last May. Ouch to say this, I have gained 12 back since February. I do think about when I hadn't lost any yet and I never in a million years thought I'd see 45lbs but I did it. I did the work and I made it happen and I feel so good for doing that work but I'm weakening and back tracking. I want to lose more but something inside me is saying. "Oh! Can't do that. People will expect more from you, like you're capable of more than mediocre." I have got to change my eating! I exercise 4-5x a week for weeks at a time and then take a week off. I have to be the change. I know.

Ugh.