Wednesday, June 06, 2012
I have been movin' and grovin' a lot lately. School is out for me and I have committed myself to getting to the gym as usual; no excuses. Since I do have more free time, I have been working out for 60 minutes 3 days a week. Initially the scale wasn't moving, but I must say that I wasn't tracking as well as I had been. But now I have been being honest with my tracker and making wise food choices.
This evening my family is out at Youth Group and I was home alone for dinner. I secretly couldn't wait for them to leave so I could make some yummy pumpkin pancakes and fruit for dinner. All I could think of was the sweet and creamy taste of those pancakes. I found it comforting to just think about them. However, standing alone in the kitchen, frozen and steeped in thought, it occurred to me to ask myself why I wanted pancakes for dinner. That meal would cause me to go over my WW points for the day. I did earn 12 points working out today, but that isn't the point. Why did I really want pancakes for dinner? I realized that I wanted to be comforted and I find pancakes to be a rather comforting food, especially eaten by myself.
At the time I didn't realize why I wanted to be comforted and I am not so sure I have figured it out yet, but I decided that it would be better for me to make a different meal for dinner. In the end I opted for a Lean Cuisine entree with extra veggies and unsweetened apple sauce. After all, the purpose of eating is to nourish my body, right?
Although I was being compliant to my goal, I wasn't so happy about it. I took one a look at the frozen meal and it didn't look so appetizing. "Oh well, sacrifices must be made to reach my goals," I thought. But do they? I then decided to re-frame my thinking and told myself that I was really going to enjoy my meal. I really like snap peas and that was the vegetable I cooked to supplement the entree. I really like unsweetened apple sauce too. I wasn't making a compromise in taste, I was making a non emotional choice for a meal. My meal would be satisfying because it would do what a meal was supposed to do, nourish my body and give it strength to get through the evening.
Well I was satisfied by my dinner and making that choice has given me the resolve to continue to make it a banner day. My workout this morning will really make a difference on the scale this week because of my wise choices. I can do this.
I suppose my next step is to figure out why I felt I needed to be comforted. I will spend some time in prayer and in the Word to figure that out. I think I know, but time with the Lord is never a bad thing.