May was a frustrating month for me. I let myself take the easy way out, much more than I should have. Yes, I broke into 150-ville early in the month, and dropped to 156, but then I bounced up and down between 156 and 159 for the rest of the month. I didn't do any ST and I think my arms have forgotten what a push-up is... Bleahhh. I did make progress in my C25K program, but I lost time in it by skipping planned days.
So now it's June and I'm ready to go again. I hate that I lost momentum, but it's through my own doing, so shake it off, and away I go. Weighed in at 155.8 lbs, so yes, got past that stumbling block! National Running Day today? Why, thank you, I think I will lace up my Defyance and head outside! Hmm, need to spark motivation? I know - I registered for my 1st AND 2nd 5K's, 7/28 and 8/4.
So what's the problem? I'm pissed. Yesterday was my WW meeting, where they happily told me I was down 1.8 lbs from last week. I smiled, as I knew it just meant I was back where I was before my 2 lb bounce. Joni, our leader, told us to look at the calendar in our weekly handouts, and write in events, plans, vacations, etc for the summer months. The calendar ended with Labor Day week. She asked us to look at our current weights, and plot out a goal for where we wanted to be on Labor Day. I thought it over, and figured, 13 weeks to go, 5K training to do, kayaking lessons planned, I wrote down 16 lbs loss. That's what, 1.2 lbs a week? I did that during the last 5% Challenge, I can surely do it again. Joni asked us to share our goals, so I did. That's when I got pissed.
Really? 16 lbs?
Yes, 16 lbs.
Do you think that's a good goal? Realistic?
If I stay on plan, yes, it's absolutely realistic. I lose 1.5 - 2 lbs a week when I track and work out as I should.
You really think you can do that? I think it's unrealistic and too much.
Wow! Really?! Way to encourage me, weight loss leader! WW tells us that if we're active and on plan, we can expect to lose 1-2 lbs a week, so why is what I want to do so out of reach? Yes, it means work, but shouldn't a goal be a challenge? If it's easy to achieve, then what was the point? I know what I need to do, I know how to do it, and I have support from my husband, family and Spark friends. Apparently, I have all the support a girl could want - except for my WW leader. Which makes me want to lose the weight in less than 13 weeks and throw it in her face with a big "Bite me!" tossed in. Yes, I really am a 44 yr old, grown woman.
I woke up still pissed this morning, and I'm looking at alternate meeting times with different leaders. Am I over-reacting? I just can't help but feel that she should have smiled and said "What a great challenge! How can I help you?" Why try to tear my goal down? It's not as if I said I wanted to lose 30 lbs in 13 weeks, after all. I'm just so unhappy with her lack of faith.
Come on, Sparkers, let me have it - What does the Spark-verse think?