Wednesday, June 06, 2012
My love during 4 years is slim
And I have just spent a vacation with a girl who has become very thin
And me - I am the big one
What is the difference between me and them?
Maybe they are more physical active than me.
The main difference is that they never eat in between meals.
The thin girl can even forget to eat during the day. Once I drove a tour with her. I ate some breakfast. She ate a little. At lunchtime I went and got a wrap-up with chicken and vegetables and some mineral water. She did not eat anything but got a smoothie.
She had bought a little sandwich. She did not eat it until 7.30 pm.
I wonder how I began getting so hungry during the day. When I was a child I did not care less about food. The only thing I remember from my childhood is shepherdīs pie and the times I was forced to eat food I did not like.
Once I was on a tour with my grandmother and her friend. A day at dinnertime we had to find a place to eat in a hurry. My grandmotherīs friend would feel bad if we did not get food at this time. I was amazed. To day I am her - the friend.
I get in bad humour if I donīt get my food when it is mealtime.
It is very very seldom I have been so occupied with something that I have forgot eating in the past ten years.
When I am with thin people I suppress my hunger as I find it embarrassing it is always me - the fat one who wants food.
My new year promise was to focus on other things like my ceramic or.. in stead. I am trying. Than one day I fell in and bought a new cookbook with the worlds best diet and focused on food again and got fatter rather than thinner.