I guess I am nurturing myself today by dwelling on the friends at the party and looking over things I got from the retirement party. Three helium balloons and the framed group of school photos and the cards are decorating the living room. There are 8 photos of me from the year books. Just head shots. All have huge glasses except the last one. Now I don't need glasses for distance. And most of the photos have perms. I think of myself as having straight hair so those photos were a shock. And some photos were groups of us at school, just starting out as teachers. We looked so young!

Some photos will be coming.

I had no internet for 2 days! Withdrawal ! The workman was here 3 hours yesterday. Fixed at last! And it wasn't anything I did! Yeah!

Today (after trying for 6 years!) a social worker from the state is coming here to see if they have any programs to help me with DH. My finances have changed so now maybe we are eligible. Keep your fingers crossed.

On retiring, I had to stop the evening aides. I kept the morning one to save my sanity. I pay myself so the aides got to be too expensive. $1920 per month and really all they did was stay for one hour -- AM get him up and washed and dressed and breakfasted and do something related to his laundry and PM in the evening -Putting him in bed --doing less than in the morning reaslly. That is a lot of money for not really much help.