Wednesday, June 06, 2012
This week I have a lot to be proud of, because I'm working really hard at conquering my food problems. Yesterday, after a 20-mile bike ride, I came home starving. My daughter had baked brownies the night before, and the pan was sitting on the stove when I got there. But I had a healthy b-fast first, and THEN...I had ONE brownie, not the whole pan. This was huge.
Then, I took my kids to the park for a picnic lunch, where we met up with Dan on his lunch break. I brought a package of those Chips Deluxe with the M&M's in them. They are awesome. But I only had 2, and the kids ate the rest.
The day before that, I got a 2-mile run, and was in a lot of foot pain the rest of the day. But I didn't sit around eating the rest of the day and feeling sorry for myself. I got my water and did other things, like catching up on blog reading. It took a couple hours just to read one guy's blogs, but it was worth it because they were that good. And I didn't mindlessly eat while I did it. :)
I've been under 2000 calories all week so far, and I'm really proud of myself. Last night, I weighed in out of curiosity. I was really unhappy with the number; all those frustrated feelings came flooding back. So I took the scale, and put it away in the back of my cabinet under the bathroom sink. I am going to stay under 2000 calories as much as I can, and keep exercising as much as I want to, and not worry about the scale for awhile. I know I'm doing the right things, and I know that I can't see results on a scale after 3 days of watching my food. And I am at peace with this.
I have also decided that I am not doing the Evergreen Tri in July. I have been planning to do it all year, and I've been training for it for the past 2 months. But the running has been getting worse and worse. Tomorrow I have an appt. to see a foot dr. and I'm hopeful it's not bad news. I have been having foot pain since March, and it keeps me up at night. It's that bad. I have very flat feet. My feet creep my husband out, because there is foot where there should be an arch. I'm on my 2nd pair of orthotics but they are cheap crappy temp ones that are several years old. I wish I had saved my good orthotics but a friend told me they were too old, so I pitched them when I was moving 3 years ago. Anyway, it's time to put my race on a shelf and get to the bottom of my foot problem. Until then, I'm riding my bike almost every day and also getting to the pool, so all is not lost. All I can do is keep doing the best I can, and that'll have to be good enough. :/