Tuesday, June 05, 2012
It's been quite an intense few months... I left chch and, the quakes and the ex husband and started my new life here in Wellington. I've settled well into work, moved house for the third time since I got here and am now settled in the suburbs with my new partner and a kitten.
I've made a few friends here and it seems that the hardship of the last couple of years is now under the bridge.
During this year I've completed 2 triathlons, a 7km, 10km and a 10.5km fun run. I saw myself get under 100kg for the first time ever yet over the last couple of months I have been slowly falling back into old habits.
Habits of the emotional/binge eating persuasion.
I've been seeing a personal trainer who hasn't been pushing me to my potential and I'm really struggling to stay motivated. I have a 1/2 marathon to complete in September and my focus has really been getting worse and worse.
So, today I had the awkward conversation with my trainer that he's going to be replaced. I've found a personal training gym that focuses only on PT sessions. I have a meeting with one of the trainers there tomorrow morning and it's all of 15 mins walk from my house. So fingers crossed I'm on to something there!
Food... my new partner is chinese and he has very different views on serving sizes, oil and salt. We;ve had a few lengthy discussions about why I don't want to eat as much as he's eating, and he now lets me serve myself rather than him serving me a huge plate of food that look like about 5 servings on 1 plate!
But eating at home isn't so much the problem... it's the sweet stuff during the day at work.
So I'm hoping that getting back into Spark and getting back into blogging will help me with the emotional demons that are encouraging me to scoff all kinds of unnecessary junk.
I started at 138.8kg a couple of years ago. Today I'm 105.7kg. In february I got down to 98.8kg... I can not allow myself to get any further off track. I refuse to go back to how I started.