Monday, June 04, 2012
I'm looking for some secrets from you repeat offenders who've made it big, gone straight, stayed on the wagon. I am just not getting the motivation I need, the strength to say no, whatever it takes to lose weight and keep it off. I can't sustain more than a 2 week effort at doing well. Yes I'm stressed, yes I'm old and post menopausal, yes I get no more than 6 hours of sleep a night, yes I work more than 60 hours a week and also go to graduate school on line....BUT STILL!!!!
I need to get this $hit under control before I drop over dead with a heart attack! I know it but I still can't seem to have that AHA moment that I need to have it click in my brain. Time is running out, I'm not a young girl anymore, I have a heart valve deformity, bad knees, I'm no longer chubby or pleasingly plump ... I AM MORBIDLY OBESE!!!!
If you have any insight into what might cause that light bulb to go off in my head I could use it. If you had an epiphany that made you get your $hit together, email me, post it on my web page, whatever, I'm taking all callers. Yes I'm desperate and I get more and more depressed every day which only makes me eat more. If I could do one thing right for an entire week, water, walking, whatever....I'd be motivated just a little bit.